Anorexics only..answer please?

well when you speak of 'control', it is the anorexia, the disease, thats controlling you, not you. And I completely understand that feeling. Its good that you want to eat. You may be getting better and the disease has less of a death grip on you. You are lucky to be feeling this way. Look, I know you don't want to hear this, but you can't live your life as an anorexic, you are only damaging your metabolism and doing serious harm to your body and health. You will either get healthy and struggle with your messed up metabolism and eventually get it under control, or you won't get better and get very sick and die.