Well i need help anyone please i need as much ADVICE AS POSSIBLE FROM AS MANY PEOPLE !!!!!!!!!PLEASEE HELLLP?

so were to begin me and my bf recently broke up cuz he was a complete jerk never lets me where what i want to wear aand if i do he calls me names likes hooe or something even if what im wearing is a cute sundrerss he is also super bossy and gets mad at every little thing and he wont let me hang out with friends and anything that goes wrong he blames me and if he gets mad he expects me to kiss his but if i get maad he will get mad and still make me kiss his a...welll i was sad cuz i did not have himthing is when i brake up wit him i think about his past he has had a horrible childhood wit dad leaving and mom partying and when i think about that i feel bad and get back with him but he is so mean ...well yesterday i went to his house ..he refuses to come to mine ever so i always have to go to his..anyway wen i went to his house i was feeling depressed because i hate how he treats me and because me and my mom got into another big fight instead of being concerned and help me he was like dude get that retarded look off your face ..your acting all emo and dumb then i couldnt be happy so he was like just get the fuuuuk outta my house i dont wanna see your dumb *** and then he was like walk your own as home. but he finaly did walk me home i told him i was probably gonna be depresd for about a week and he was like okay then dont talk to me for a week then i said ok then wats the point of being together if you cant help me out and he was like idk im tired of your bitcccch a and then i was like okay then were over then he was like watever then you better not call me crying and begging me to get back with your ********* a and i was like ok and then he went to go drink and party that same night ..so idk what this means please help